.......

I don't even know how or what to feel anymore.... Plain and simple.

.... It's just not going to end good for me....

I'm thinking way to hard tonight and I know I need to stop, I don't wanna open my mouth and talk about it because I don't really have anyone to talk about it too. Same ol song or story I suppose, I have two bestfriend but, this time around I just really wanna keep it to myself because I doubt anyone will feel how I feel at the end of the day.

I'm bored, slightly buzzed, and thinking.

Not good.

I can feel the negativity surround me and tonight I just don't have it in me to deal with these things, I just wanna sleep and forget I thought about it or just get so fuckin high tomorrow I don't remember anything that's not funny.

Yeah, the way I live.

School, when I'm busy I won't have time to care... Everything is out of place right now but the sad part is, it's been that way for a while and I just got tired of trying to put the pieces back in place... it's time to let things flow as they may.

I dont' wanna compete anymore, in my eyes I've already lost and everyone knows when you lose a game it's time to get up and keep going on about your day.

I guess I have to do the same... I'm slowly starting to not care more and more, and honestly I can't wait til I just don't anymore then things won't be as hard as they are now. I miss not being in love, I do... Everything was so simple back then now I've let love win let's see how it take that?

I mean you can't be a sore winner, can you?

I hope now. U__U;