Just thought I'd say

My last post to my past.

Months have pasted sense I've lost friends and gained new ones. I think back on my past and I realize everything I did was completely stupid. I saw that half that shit wasn't worth it or wasn't going to work and I did it anyway.

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Now I can laugh about it cause even though I lost friends, they seem happy with life and I'm happy for them. Well, some of them some of them still need to grow up and stop blaming people for there failures. I know I had to, and I did I make my life great or I break it no 1 else but me.

Just a little letter to everyone, even if we don't talk.

I'm happy for you, and I want you to keep smiling and pushing foward. Though we're not close and we don't have communication with one another by choice or by thought of a better cause I wish you the best in life. I swear I do, life is to short to keep bad things going and the world is to small to say we'll never see again but all in all I thank god for letting me meet you along the way of growth.

Live you're dream, because someone else will if you don't.

If you decide you do wanna follow me, or hit me up. Yahoo meh.

Kaorioutlaw@ymail.com

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Ja ne

So I can finally say.

I don't love him anymore.... I'm finally free of the attachment that caused me to be ashamed to speak loves name again. He was m everything and I was his mistake, never again will I ever have to feel that pain, and I finally have someone who loves me more than life, and means it. I now know that all these years I was just something he wanted, not nothing he needed, and even still he's still undying-l in love with her. All of the years denying it and finally, I was right. I'm happy for her moving on, she doesn't have to experience his sorrow anymore either. All we did was fight over something that wasn't worth it.

I'm getting married, to a wonderful Lycan, such as myself. He's a provider, and a great lover. He treats me like his queen, in words, and action. I never have to worry about cheating, or who he's talking to. I'm calm and cool, cause all he wants is me, and only me. This feels so good, my mother was right god rest her sweet soul. He was sent to me by god, and god never gives you more than you cant handle. Tetsuo was a gift from the heavens and I show him such each and everyday... My last name will be Williams soon, that makes me happy. Moving away to Nevada will be good for me, I no long have to rekindle the memories of this hurtful town. I can be happy and free, after putting me mother to rest. She's no longer hurting and no longer in pain, I can be great-ful for that. Heh I wanted him so bad, I wanted him to always be there and love me, now I know his love wasn't for me, and it never will be.

Life has started for me, and suddenly his just seems sad... I remember those day, one day he'll actually listen but I won't be around to find out, I wish him the best.

Signed,

Alexis Deshawn Williams (^______^)