So today was a very, very angry day for me and well most of my anger automatically went to one precise individual. This weekend was nothing short of a test and, you failed it with flying colors. I'm grateful for my gifts after this because I was warned Thursday night that some bullshit was going to happen this weekend and sure enough it did of course. Now I thought I had at least two people in my life that would do there damnedest not to make shit harder for me than it already is, my ass was fooled like a motha fucka. I can't believe the shit that happened to day and the more I think about it the more I just wanna say fuck friends in general. I could go down the list of all the times I've givin up thing for your little ass to be happy and was MISERABLE for it but hey I guess I'm a totally a different person and just cares to fuckin much about shit. On my anniversary day the day would of been better if you hadn't been there but because you didn't wanna be home I said fuck it I'll take the L only to hear you smiled when we broke up.
Oh thanks alot, thanks a fuckin lot. I checked up on you every times something like that happened comforted you and went out my way to make you feel better, but no I can't get the same shit, I get to see you ass every time I hit a downfall with Hinote. I understand that you don't want me to go through what you did but at the end of the day you went through it you had your chance. As for you're little Rouge egnigma, I don't give a flying fuck as to how she feel and at this moment I don't give a fuck to how you feel. That shit was snake and stupid, don't understand why the argument happened, you're mouth cased it. YOUR MOUTH. You happy cause he single and not with me, either it be an oppertunity to be around him and now worry about my name being brought up or it just be closure that we didn't work out.
It's still some bullshit.
Even when I didn't want to share and make you happy I still did, when I wanted him for myself like you did a year ago, I still fuckin did it because it's something that made you happy and shit. He was my best friend, starting from the point of us breaking up and I fell in love with him, I loved him first. You got him, had him, kept him all of that but whether it be me or another girl it's going to happen.
I have every reason not to trust you anymore, even if I had of talked all the shit in the worth seniority over dick, you should of know to keep to yourself or even if you told him you had better told on yourself Ms. I remember clearly what you said but I dunno what I said at all. Please. PLE-ASE! That's another reason why I asked who told him, because if Midori told him I'd of just takin the L because I did say things to her, but when he wouldn't tell me I know who opened there mouth and started this bull.
As far as I'm concerned 9 years don't mean shit, because if it did my 9 years bestfriend wouldn't be happy that I feel like some stepped on my heart and shat on the pieces. Even when I wasn't around and you felt like you're world was crumbling and you didn't know why I was the one who told you it was Jasmine he was talking to, I told him to be with you instead of me because I want you to be happy...I...
Ya know wha, it worth it going down memory lane and telling you how much I've done cause you've done shit for me the difference is I appreciated it all.
It's fine I'll never have to worry about this again because around you I'll just be a zombie, a normal playful zombie, as far as your concerned. You get the barrier that I put up for people who've hurt me.
Lies, all lies as far as I'm concerned.
You don't want me to love him and try with everything that I am to make our love work? You mad that we got together 6 months ago?
To fuckin bad.
I should be mad that I left for you when I was with him in our 3 way, I accept each time we went back to you and you didn't care why he was back as long as he was. As much as you got away with even though he said he was done with you, you're feeling on our relationship doesn't count.
Especially after this.
I hate being a bitch, I do but this time just like the last time I was to you is justified. This is what people much like yourself have been doing to me over the years.
I hope you're happy...
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