So I can finally say.

I don't love him anymore.... I'm finally free of the attachment that caused me to be ashamed to speak loves name again. He was m everything and I was his mistake, never again will I ever have to feel that pain, and I finally have someone who loves me more than life, and means it. I now know that all these years I was just something he wanted, not nothing he needed, and even still he's still undying-l in love with her. All of the years denying it and finally, I was right. I'm happy for her moving on, she doesn't have to experience his sorrow anymore either. All we did was fight over something that wasn't worth it.

I'm getting married, to a wonderful Lycan, such as myself. He's a provider, and a great lover. He treats me like his queen, in words, and action. I never have to worry about cheating, or who he's talking to. I'm calm and cool, cause all he wants is me, and only me. This feels so good, my mother was right god rest her sweet soul. He was sent to me by god, and god never gives you more than you cant handle. Tetsuo was a gift from the heavens and I show him such each and everyday... My last name will be Williams soon, that makes me happy. Moving away to Nevada will be good for me, I no long have to rekindle the memories of this hurtful town. I can be happy and free, after putting me mother to rest. She's no longer hurting and no longer in pain, I can be great-ful for that. Heh I wanted him so bad, I wanted him to always be there and love me, now I know his love wasn't for me, and it never will be.

Life has started for me, and suddenly his just seems sad... I remember those day, one day he'll actually listen but I won't be around to find out, I wish him the best.

Signed,

Alexis Deshawn Williams (^______^)