To the Ex-Boyfriend.

COMMON METHOD: WRITE A LETTER TO YOUR EX AND THEN BURN IT.

You think that you're pain is so much more than mine? I couldn't tell you how many times I've acted a fool just for the sake of you. How many times I've givin up so much just for the sake of a fucking smile on your face. You're so upset that you cheated on Hikari with me, you've done the same with me for her so please spare our veiwers the bullshit. Loving you was a privilage to me, and I adored it for as long as I could before things I shrugged off couldn't be shrugged off anymore. I have broken down so many night confused and alone, and prying that things would work out. I have some things to say to you as well.

1) As much as you say you care, you're a selfish child that always wants his way. You cling to the fact that you did all you could for me but besides taking care of me in my worth heath states what have you done for me? I was the back bone of this relationship I did all I could to make you happy and when I failed you made sure to point out all flaws.

2) Realizing I'm a liar when it comes to you isn't a hard task but have you ever just sat down and asked yourself why dose she feel like she needs to lie to me? I doubt it because you dont' think that far. You aditude has always got int the way of everything good you'd ever had when you dod wrong yeah a sorry is there but the only reason you say sorry is because you feel obligated to, you're only sorry that you were wrong dear sayin.

3) You have no idea what the fuck you want. I have always told you I wanted carry your last name, have your kids and have a happy life with you for as long as the world would allow my ass to breath. I've never dropped anything for you? I'm suppose to protect your pride cause thats all you have. My pride was completly gone when I allowed you to love another, and I accepted it. My fuckin pride was gone when I started that 3 way fuckin relationship because I didn't want you to struggle with who to love. I dropped my pride spat on it and took a shit on it for you, for you. (doubt you believe that because that's just how you are)

I admit I lied, and looking back on it I'm glad I did it cause now I see things for what they are. I'm obviously not good enough for our price if sayins as much I've tried I'm just not. You love me, I say it in your eyes monday but your not willing to accept and change. You're stuck in your ways and you can't be wrong if you are its about very little. If you know me so fucking well you know what I want outta my life, you know what I need. I had to adapt to you, and know what to do and how to do it. Some days you didn't even wanna lay with me because you didn't wanna be horizontal you wanted to do to something knowing damn well we ain't have shit to you do.

If he breaks my heart its nothing compared to how you broke it, its still shattering everyday. For 2 hours I laid in his arms crying about you, telling him how much I cared about you. Btw he did play your game I didn't even tell him I had it I brought him batman and let him see the 360 the game is in the draw in my room with Hinata. It's not even fuckin open, I just couldn't bring myself to give you the game because that was suppose to be our 10 month anniversary gift from me.

There some honesty from me, I know its about fuckin time. I have no reason to hold back anymore. Monday night I was selfish, I need you god I need you to be close to me I missed everything about you the way smell, how you touch, kiss, and caress me, how good you make me feel when I'm in your arms. I need to be in your embrace, and yes I was suppose to leave him countless times but I didn't want to. You couldn't leave Hikari for me, you could cheat on her but you couldn't leave her... more than once.

He's good to me, he cares about how I feel and he listens... I don't feel the need to lie.

Loving you has been hell, and I loved you first you think you had it bad. Please. Do what you gotta do but remember when you realize this is all stupid don't come to me wanting to be in my life you could of been a very good friend we could of worked on that before all else but if you wanna go and do this huge as transformation of bad thinking its going to feel the void in you its not. You're just going to be a typical nigga. Even though I love him, my love for you is so much bigger, so much.

Now i have to get over you completely, and if he breaks my heart that's something I'll have to chuck up as a loss. My heart is already broken, so it breaking again won't hurt as bad...

Alexis D Byrd

05/24/1991 to 11/19/2011

Guess death is something we both know about...