("Daddy, save me...")It would seem everything that makes this pain go away is bad, bruising myself, crying, the will to eat has been long gone, all of it. I can't do anything right apparently, this explains why Mom n Dad left all those years ago.
They knew I was a fuck up, and I wouldn't be an different to them but another disappointment.
I'm going to die alone, all alone and at this point the pain will kill me before age does.
Somebody save me, because at this point what reason would I have to live... to be somebody, to live a grand life... No thanks, life isn't life if you don't have people to share it with and somehow all the people I wanted close are gone... so very far away.
I welcome being numb and forgetting what breathing feels like.
I totally understand how you feel. I'm in the same boat as you.
ReplyDeleteI don't think your parents are the way they are because of you though. They are the way they are because of who they are on the inside.
Sometimes love isn't enough.
Anywho... Lexi i'm always here and if you need someone to talk to... i'm here to listen.
Hopefully something positive happens to you SOON so you can have just at least a small smile even if it is for only a moment.